All good in the Hood.

I guess waiting shit out really cures some things

each day I feel as if my boo and I are getting closer :)

It's a great feeling.

I`m still doing track, although I`m like slowly giving up on it

My babe wont let me give up though

My grades are picture perfect AAB & a C+ in math, which I can bring up...

Ummm I need a job, like really bad.. :-P

Shit !
Well that is all, just checkinq in & lettinq yall know everything will be just fine !

It`s Like Moving Mountains..

I feel so not needed :-\

Like, Why doesnt my girlfriend ever come to me when she's down ?

Why does she hide all her feelings from me ?

She only talks to me about pointless shit...

I wanna know what's deep down...

I remember my ex girlfriend..

She used to call me for everything... Even if it was 6 in the morning because there was a roach in her bed.. loll ahah good times

Or when she got in a car accident, and I was the first one she called, before her own parents..

I loved that feeling :-\

Now I just feel like an accessory...

Ahh whatever...

P.S. - I havent given up on track ! I`m so proud of myself :)

New Found Motivation...

Last quarter was an all time low for me ever in high school... my grades were not good & i`m not even gonna put them out there like that... but it a new semester which means new classes, new faces, new teachers, basically starting fresh !! :) I`m taking my first A/P class this quarter and boy am I nervous, it's english, which I'm good at but who wouldnt be nervous ! I've decided to get me lazy ass up and get conditioned for the track season ^_^ which I started on monday w| my girlfriend :) all is well, even though this is the first day for everything... I`ma start setting weekly goals to keep myself motivated and ambitious ... I`m serious bout my shit this time... Welp, Until next time...

UGHHH !

Don`t you hate that feeling when you know somethinq bad is qonna happen to somebody but they dont wanna listen ?!?! well my qirlfriend is being mothefucking hardheaded... & its not like what I`m telling has no chance of happening, it has happened manyyyyyy times to her before but she's being fucking stupid and hardheaded... She wont budge on her decision, and I guess I`m supposed to be all mothafuckinq happy and dandy again... ? No , I`m fuckinq anqry, and this miqht just fuck up our relationship.. oh fuckinq well.. I cant be with people who make dumb decisions again and again and again ...

As of right now

fuck 110509 !

Sexually Frustrated...

I love sex !

& I want to have it soo badd, but I don`t wanna seem like that's all I want out of my relationship... you know if all we did was fuck..I`d lose interest forreal - .. Thank god last time was just a false alarm =P , we're still qoin stronq & I think I love her... ? I`ll get back to that in another blog eventually... Anywho.

My girlfriend satisfies me to the fullest... & she's able to turn me on with just one touch... -sigh-

But Idk, I`m not comfortable enough with her to like demand her to fuck me because of the reason above...

Also I dont want our good times to only be sexual times...

& the rest of our relationship is bad times

that's horrible and unhealthy.. I guess this is the right thing to do ... I might need to control my hormones.. It's just that she TURNS ME ON SO DAMN MUCH !!

SO !

I quess I`ma just have to stick w| my toys between ectasies. lol

Goinq Backwards !

Its funny how shit could change in a matter of days.... I think im losing interest in my girlfriend lol... i`m in denial though... idk ... well whatever this feeling is, i would want it to go away, cuz i know she makes me super happy.... -sigh- i cant keep anything good that I got...

Poetry ?

So I think i`m actually capable of writing poetry.. I`m just impatient...

& I get writers block too often...

But i found out, that when I`m just in my thinking|bored mode

I write some good shit, and I got some good feedback :)

So here`s a  semi short one..

I didn`t name it yet

I`ll love you `til i take my last breath

untill the casket shuts...

at my wake, I`ll be loving you

While people mourn and cry

I`ll be thinking of you

When it`s time for my corpse to be buried

I`ll be missing you

Loving you

Once my soul goes through the gates

I`ll be watching you

Loving you

But I am here today

So tell me you love me

It doesn't have to be eternal

Don't have to be immortal

Just take me into your arms

& Say you love me

Because for me, I`ll love you

til death do us part

Scratch that,

my love will end a day after never

So when I look you in your eyes

And tell you I love you

Cherish it,

Because that means I`ll love you forever.

-Relz